Discontentment

Discontentment. I cannot shake this feeling lately. It's everywhere.

I have slept until eleven almost every morning this week. Before I even get out of bed I feel like I have wasted half the day. When I feel like the day has already been wasted I am not any more motivated to get up. It's a never-ending downward spiral, not to mention a horrible sleep pattern.

School starts in just over a week. Just thinking about school overwhelms me. The homework. The driving. Buying textbooks.

My internship starts on May 15th. I have no idea where it will be. I am genuinely freaked out and feel so unprepared to go on internship. More unprepared than the spring semester of classes will help.

Then there is the tiny apartment. It is so small and cramped. There simply is not room for all of our stuff. There is constantly a pile of stuff to give away and yet there is still too much for the apartment. I feel like all I do is just move the clutter from one place to another. It is a pointless, never-ending cycle that makes me feel better for a day or two.

These are all relatively small ways in which I feel discontent. If it were just one I am sure I could handle it. I fact I probably wouldn't even notice it.

Maybe the point is that I am supposed to notice. Up until now I thought all of this was unholy discontentment-- I was not supposed to feel this way. But, what if this a holy discontentment that is leading me to God and leading me to find true contentment in Him?

5/365: Third Pic(k)

This is actually my third pick of pictures I would have posted today. originally, I thought I would post a pic of my good friend Sarah and I but I slacked and didn't get a picture taken. the other pic I wanted to post would have been my neighbor's cat who I found in the hallway this afternoon. Instead I did the noble thing and took their cat back. what I was left with was my delicious Olive Garden leftovers. yum!

4/365: Supplemental Income

These are the books I sold on amazon today. I have yet to mail them though.... Also, you will notice that these are sitting on my desk. Maybe tomorrow the picture will focus on something that is not my desk or anything on my desk. Who knows?

3/365: Productivity

I moved my desk to the opposite side of the living room today. so far, so good. My desk chair will no longer be directly in front of the tv, so perhaps I will be more productive. Productivity would be a good theme for this year.

Also, it took me a good thirty minutes to figure out how to move the picture to the left rather than the center. Yes, I am in grad school.

Project 365ish

I've decided to do the photo project 365 whatever thing.

What's that you say? No pictures yet on ye old blog?

I'm only going to post photos monday thru friday, which will get interesting once school starts since I'll be away from home pretty much all day on tuesdays. Maybe I'll double up on wednesdays...who knows?

Stay tuned for an exciting picture later. Hopefully after a successful move of my desk.