Hiatus

So, if anyone else has taken 20 credit hours of grad classes they will understand when I say I am and have been on a blogging hiatus until Christmas break gets here.

Here's hoping I actually survive and make it there!

Things That End In -ation

The process of registration has begun. I never dreamed that registration would be so difficult. I guess I thought since the college I went to was so small and I never had any issues registering then that I wouldn't have any issues now. That was definitely some flawed logic. Whereas then I could actually make my schedule and count on it not to change, now I just write down the course numbers and when I go to register I hope that whatever is still available will all meld together somehow.

The "good" thing is that one of my classes is online and I don't have to worry about getting into it because the assistant dean has already told me that they will have to create a special spot for me. Ah, a secure spot. The bad thing is that it is an online class. I am really not looking forward to taking an online class. at. all. I've never taken one and I am kind of doubting I have the discipline it takes to be in an online class. Oh well. Guess I'm just going to have to buck up and do it. At least I don't have to drive to class.

Which brings me to my next concern. Do I take the class I really want to take or do I take the class that makes it possible for me to drive less? Or do I take the class that allows me to nanny for a really cute 1.5 year old and allows me to make a little extra money? Really, it doesn't matter what I want. It's all about what class will still have open seats in it at 6 pm tomorrow night.

Making all of this even worse is that I am stressed out by the sheer amount of homework that needs to be done in the next month. Adding to that stress is this sore feeling in my throat. I have a feeling this isn't going to end well.

Rough Week

This week has been rough.

If only just one or two of these had happened I would have been ok.

But they all happened.

-I got back two midterms which I didn't do super well on. One was deserved and I took that in stride. The other was completely ridiculous and the whole test should have been thrown out.

-My poor car was in a fender bender. The damage isn't too extensive, I just have an unhealthy attachment to the car.

-I was assigned the awful time ticket of 6 pm for registration. Last time my time was 1 pm and I didn't get into the classes I wanted.

-Speaking of registration, I have a mysterious hold on my account related to a transcript. So I can't even register at the ungodly hour of 6 pm.

-I have 5 specific classes that I must take in the spring in order to start my internship next summer. 3 of them already conflict with each other and the assistant dean is ignoring my emails.

-Speaking of ignoring my emails, I sent 4 emails to university people yesterday and none of them have responded. Am I invisible?

Ok, that's it. I will stop my whining and work my tail off the rest of the semester.

p.s. anyone know of an article that will show the C25K plan is evidence based?

Thoughts On Graduate School

I remember this time last year. I was dying to get into the U of I's School of Social Work. I prayed about it all the time. I asked pretty much everyone I knew to pray about it too. It was all I could think about. I worried about it all the time.

One year later, I am a student at the U of I's School of Social Work. Sure, I was elated a few months ago when I found out I was accepted. Now, I am more of stressed. Now, I kind of wish I wouldn't have got in and that I was out working a job that would actually be relevant to a career in social work.

I remember loathing the waiting process so much. I remember thinking it was so hard to wait on God to answer my prayers. As hard as all the waiting was, it was so much easier than actually doing what God calls you to. I don't know that I have ever wanted something so desperately and once I got it, wished it was something else.

Waiting seems so easy now. It was easy to be in limbo and easy to wait because it just required some faith. Actually going to graduate school requires so much more faith. It isn't that my actual faith is being challenged, it is that I am being challenged and it requires me to put even more faith in God.

I don't know how many times I wonder if I will make it through. Twenty hours of graduate level classes is a lot. And somehow it took me until yesterday to fully grasp that. Twenty hours of class and spending 9 hours a week in my car is more than draining.

I am learning a ton about myself. Like, I suck at time management. And I am awesome at procrastination. And I am easily distracted. Also, I am not as disciplined as I once thought I was.

This week was midterms and it showed my true colors. I was mostly unprepared for all of them, yet somehow I think I will be ok. This has been a huge wake-up call and I now have the proof that a major overhaul is in order.

Wednesday

Wednesday is always a letdown for me.

Monday and tuesday are so full that by the time I get to wednesday I want to crash.

And I usually do. I'll do some cleaning, but that is usually the most productive thing I can accomplish. Sometimes I'll cook something. Like today, I cooked a Pioneer Woman meatloaf. Yum!

Usually, this isn't a horrible issue. But tomorrow I have a midterm. That I haven't started studying for at all. And I've already had three midterms so I'm even more tired than normal.

That being said, I'm going to go study.

And eat some meatloaf.